The Complexities Of Seeing And Saying

Well now I've gone and done it!

Said what I see, without reservation.

Oh dear. Oh dear!

What's gonna happen to me?

The blog article I wrote yesterday, titled “On The Subject Of Chaos In The Coming Into Clarity Within Oneself In The Era Of Trump Administration/Congressional Dysfunction,” was so packed with profound and insightful musings that upon my sharing it this morning with my BFF and main New Horizons collaborator, Sue, even I knew, without being told back by her, as my blog editor in chief, that it would be a long time coming before the width, breadth and height of what I had articulated could be readily understood -- and -- applied to many people's lives for real, true living application, other than my own.

Sue, a mystic, like myself, among her many other beautiful attributes "got it," but who else might, I wondered.

If you got my drift in that piece and found understanding, even I pray, resonance with what I wrote, how about a comment from you on this blog?

What's that you see and say?

Or an email to demonstrate some camaraderie? 

My email address is: MountainWomanRJ@aol.com

Spouting off the prophetic words I am sharing these days, now that I am accepting that my gift of prophecy of 1974 from an ethereal entity, from somewhere beyond me, has somehow now led me to voice more of the same, guided by wisdom beyond my own humble knowledge, is getting a bit lonely, I am concluding.

So what can I say to make it easy for you to speak up to me? 

Create a conversation? 

Have a dialogue on the subject I began yesterday,  “on the subject of truth-telling as a pathway out of confusion into serenity in the era of Trump/Congressional dysfunction!”

Stuck for options here?

Maybe -- you could play New Horizons Truth Or Dare GAME for yourself a hand full of times -- and find out for yourself, the truth of my words on the subject of truth?

Coming soon Truth Or Dare GAME training -- Fall, 2019!

Maybe dialogue/discussion on the same, in the meantime?

On The Subject Of Chaos In The Coming Into Clarity In Oneself In The Era Of The Trump Administration/Congressional Dysfunction

Or,  on the subject of truth-telling as a pathway out of confusion into serenity in the era of Trump/Congressional dysfunction!

Simply stated chaos theory, applied to human psychology, tells us that our vastly unstable minds seek order in the midst of disorder.

In other words while both life and our ever-questing minds can be counted on to upset the apple cart, again and again, our innate striving for order will, also, seek to right that upended wagon.

I got to thinking about chaos and order in all things this morning during my usual sunrise contemplation, pointedly aware that chaos has been running my life for, at least the past month, corresponding, unsurprisingly, with the planet Mercury having gone into its retrograde phase on March 5 through March 28, with its “pre-shadow,” or ramping up on February 19.

Throughout this period I have had to activate two new cell phones, deal with an unanticipated crash on my old computer that kept me from writing and publishing my usual offerings of blog posts, purchase, install and customize a new computer and manage the ordeal of a car accident in which the rented car I was driving, because my own car had been waylaid by my typically reliable auto mechanic, was totaled, although my injuries were minor.

All of this with my being an almost complete tech dummy!

Mercury retrograde, as you may know, is a Hellish three week period during which the planet Mercury appears to be in backwards motion. 

When Mercury is in retrograde, technology, communication, travel, logic, and information all get disrupted. During this time human beings experience many adverse effects, such as memory loss, loss of time, loss of items and sometimes loss of common sense. As for technology, many unexpected glitches occur, such as software crashes and emails getting lost.

Well, okay, this time I seem to be a Mercury and “pre-shadow” retrograde victim! 

And, now that these horrendous weeks are passing away, a Mercury retrograde survivor!

Given that, at last, I am beginning to recover from all the chaos I’ve been experiencing, I did my usual stint, even in tough times, this morning, to check the daily news headlines on the internet. 

There I found a CNN featured article titled “White House In Disarray: Trump’s post-Mueller victory lap is clouded by chaos.” No surprises there!  Could we expect anything other than chaos out of the Trump-era White House?

But... back to me on the subject at hand here, “truth-telling as a pathway out of confusion into serenity,” as it is my chaos I am intent on resolving not theirs!

Given my state of being this morning, however, those headlining words did set me to contemplating some of the hows and why of my determination, these days, to bring New Horizons Truth Or Dare GAME and Truth Or Dare Movement to Capital Hill, as an antidote to the lying and corruption that is infecting and presently destroying the magnificence of our democracy.

Could it be that for all my training and experience in being the Conductor of the New Horizons Truth Or Dare GAME – and -- having begun this track in my life more than forty-five years ago, I had overlooked the bigger picture of our GAME’s objectives?

The potential for truth-telling to help the individual and the collective create order out of chaos?

Could it be that truth-telling was not only a pathway to integrity, transparency, consciousness transformation and other attributes of healthy, top-of-the-line living, as I had been teaching these past many years, but that truth-telling, additionally, paves the way to the kind of order human beings thrive on, if they are to make headway, as an essential part of their natural evolutionary process?

Oh my! Oh my! What a way of seeing things!!

This is a way of seeing things that Groder had started guiding me to develop thirty-five years ago!  

Could the power of the Truth or Dare GAME process have greater far-reaching benefits than he or I had imagined?

Oh my, oh my – look what finding the golden goose who laid the golden egg that was, seemingly, destined to be mine, intended me to have, a still unimagined pathway for enhanced personal and community well-being!  

Perhaps it is time to revisit the possibilities as we chart out our future, built already on an enviable past.

The program New Horizons calls our Truth or Dare GAME was birthed, several generations after, but originating in what Groder was innovatively doing in the prison rehabilitation program discussed in the article linked above.

If you recall that Groder firmly held the notion that convicts and high leadership people can often have similar personality structures, it isn't surprising that New Horizons derives its singularly most impactful program, now intent on heading to Capital Hill, from a prison rehabilitation model that made truth-telling an essential element of recovery from the dysfunctions of the Dark Side.

All I had to do to remodel this earlier approach of his and some of its core philosophies was, so it seemed, to have the courage (Which I did!!) to go through that horrible ordeal of my Ethics Complaint process of last year – and – free myself, speaking truth to power, of the stigma I was carrying about Groder’s Dark Side so I could get past it and speak of the Light he, also, brought into my life!

But maybe there is still more yet to be discovered to this adventure of mine to make --

True order out of chaos for me!

Brought about by my speaking truth to power with the International Transactional Analysis Association who had no apparent interest in hearing it, at all! 

You can do it too!  Just learn to speak truth to power as your lifestyle! And make it a daily habit.

Figuring all this stuff out, these past few hours – and – not yet even having eaten my breakfast, pretty soon this line of thinking called up my deep yearning for our next monthly Truth Or Dare GAME to be held on Sunday, April 7 (currently open only to New Horizons Board Members and specially invited guests).

Taking my contemplations one step further, before I brought out my eggs and stuff, on the possible connections between truth-telling and seeking to replace chaos with order, I was delighted to find that a whole group of other high-minded thinkers were thinking along this line too.

Groder would likely have already have hooked up with them – and – shown them a thing or two, too, about putting theory into action in the the counterculture model he developed, featuring the Asklepeion GAME he brought out of the federal prison system, where he began his career, into the mainstream. 

Now I guess it’s up to me, with Marty now deceased! 

The GAME is mine to conduct, now on my own, as I make my way to Capital Hill with New Horizons GAME, Truth Or Dare!

Meanwhile while I move forward with that track, Maryland Route 270 into D.C. and on to Capital Hill, check out this piece by David Fuller, “Insisting on the truth in times of chaos,” in which he quotes the work of a rather contoversial Canadian professor,  Jordan Peterson, who seems to have given the relationship of truth and chaos considerable thought, as follows -

 “.,, another hallmark of truth, is that it snaps things together..... It’s like the Platonic idea that all learning was remembering. You have a nature and when you feel that nature articulated it’s it’s like the act of snapping the puzzle pieces together.”  Jordan Peterson

Wow!! Kindred spirits!

More on this topic, “truth telling as a pathway out of (chaos and) confusion into serenity,” even in the era of Trump/Congressional dysfunction, likely tomorrow, if I am to make my minimum monthly blog post quota on this site of one per week.

Anastasia's Possible Society "Love Letter"

Readers,

I had a lovely, heartwarming adventure yesterday, on what, hopefully, was one of this winter's last cold, dreary snowy days.

I gave myself a gift of updating a "love letter" I had written about five years ago to participants in our first round of conducting New Horizons Possible Human, Possible Society Study.

As I took a step back to reflect on what I had written, yesterday, I felt such joy and exhilaration I just might have been flying on the wings of that eagle I spoke of on one of my recent Anastasia The Storyteller Radio Shows, as I tried to describe my feeling of "crossing over" from one mountain peak to another, marking the liberation I've created in my life as a result of how magnificently I managed my Ethics Complaint ordeal of last year, up against the obstructions of justice I encountered from my professional association, the International Transctional Analysis Association.

Anastasia with New Horizons
Community Development Mentor,
Murat Yagan

Many days, recently, it feels as if I created magic for myself in the doing that seems now to be spreading into New Horizons, the non-profit organization I founded and presently head.

Do take a moment to read that letter, posted on March 8 on the New Horizons Small "Zones of Peace" blog site, having to do with our newly, updated Possible Human, Possible Society Study to get a taste of the love in me, embodied in the work I do, through New Horizons, to help build a better world.

Maybe what I wrote will even prompt you to join me/us in the various projects and programs New Horizons is presently putting in motion, now that their "Chief" -- me - is no longer held captive by that old, undealt with #MeToo issue, having to do with my former psychiatrist mentor, Marty Groder.

You know, of course, you need only scroll down through last year's postings on this site to read about THAT!!

BUT THIS THAT I'M TALKING ABOUT NOW IS SO MUCH MORE FUN AND HAPPIER!

The sun is shining outside my window now prompting me to wish you a happy day.

#MeToo!!!

New Horizons Possible Human, Possible Society Study To Be Updated To Support Truth Or Dare GAME And Movement: Destination Capital Hill

Readers,

I am challenged with computer problems, temporarily. Until they are rectified by a new computer on the way, my posts are going to be a bit primitive as I will be writing them from my Smartphone.

And believe me I am totally not a whiz with that technology!

But we work with what we've got. Right? And be grateful.

The BIG news I can share with you today is reflected in the title to this post. For a few more details on what is unfolding, related to it, visit the New Horizons Small "Zones of Peace" blog site at the link below.

(See how clumsy I am here. There is probably a more refined way to get this info to you. But I don't know it yet although another way to say it might be see today's post, March 7 at: zonesofpeacenh.blogspot.com.)

Anyway, below is the actual article link.

I hope the post inspires you, as things stand, today, in the nation's capital not too far from where I live at New Horizons Harpers Ferry Retreat Center, as well as elsewhere in this country, as crazy-making as are the times at hand.

Oh my, oh my!

http://zonesofpeacenh.blogspot.com/2019/03/possible-human-possible-society-study.html?m=0

More details soon.

Capital Hill And The Manifesting Of Anastasia's Prophecy

The Plan: A Truth Or Dare Movement to be launched in the coming months, with ongoing, regular Truth Or Dare GAMES already in motion NOW!

The Method: Spread New Horizons Truth Or Dare GAME methodology and Dark Side transformation processes through training, participation and support.

Based On: "Anastasia's Prophecy" and the theories and practical applications of the GRAD theory as developed by Anastasia and Martin G. Groder M.D.

The Ultimate Destination: Capital Hill with satellite programs nationwide

Strange how it is that we can sometimes almost see the workings of the universal laws. And still not quite get how the mystery of it all operates. 

That is how it is for me, these days, as I watch my long-held visions and dreams begin to grow into realities.

And yet this seeing beyond seeing is truly an aspect of the personal transformation many of us seek, even regularly on a day-to-day basis, as do I, making this quest an integral and essential part of daily practice.

This searching for the highest quality of personal attainment and a correspondingly gracious and refined existence is what I have made of my life, built out of the experiences, elements and resources that have come out of the living it.

As I stand and look back at all that has been, at this gateway before me, opening to my present and future I am awed at the beauty.and magnificence of it.

Yesterday brought the unfolding reality, as it has been showing itself in recent past weeks, home to me, as Michael Cohen testified before Congress.  I saw shadows of John Dean behind him and the specter of Richard Nixon hovering over, entwined with Donald Trump.

For me watching Michael Cohen testify was like watching the Watergate hearings all over again. This time, unfortunately, with the massive polarization we have today that was observably absent at the time of Watergate.

I think we, the constituents of the United States, were too stunned by the happenings of the Watergate scandal to react against one another then. And we had not, previously, in our lifetimes, before Watergate, encountered presidential corruption such as that. 

But we are a different breed of American these days, jaded and far removed from the honoring of presidents such as George Washington and Abraham Lincoln as we once did.

As I watched Cohen deliver his testimony and be questioned, I put my head down and wept with the pain of it all.

Shortly after, I lifted my head, again, believing that the time of the manifesting of "My Prophecy," the only one I have ever had in my life, had revealed itself, at last.

With the closing words of Representative Elijah Cummings, with whom I am proud to share the state of Maryland, my ideals were lifted. I was proud of what I was witnessing, hopeful a new and better day was approaching than we have been experiencing these past few years, under the Trump Administration, corrupt to it's very core.

The form the manifesting of my prophecy would now take, most observably, was to be, first and foremost, through New Horizons Truth or Dare GAME, destination Capital Hill!

Who would have thought it?

Cohen's testimony, replete with humbleness, transparency and accountability modeled what we, my New Horizons Board Members and myself, are after through our GAME.

Perfection and an absence of it past, not so much;  Michael Cohen is entitled to redeem himself and build trust someday, the New Horizons GAME community thinks.

The cleaning up of what has been – and – the sincere intention to make amends and do better forward is what we saw yesterday and what we seek. 

For me, personally, in this case, as at the time of Watergate, I found myself choosing to put my bet on a lower rung, identified turncoat, as opposed to the Big Guy, Honcho. 

Marty Groder, my psychiatrist mentor, veteran, prominent healer of BAD GUYS at Marion Federal Penitentiary in its heyday, newly replacing Alcatraz, had initially shown me the way, back in the mid-1980s, to guide this undertaking. 

Since I had been envisioning I would eventually lead this parade, on my own, head conductor, now, of the Truth Or Dare GAME for close to forty, amazing years.

So the time has come, almost forty years after my prophecy revealed itself to me -- and it is now!

In my reverie, I heard the National Anthem playing in my mind. 

I could see "the dawn's early light" in my mind’s eye, along with the setting of the sun outside my office window, as yesterday was ending and my life was becoming more and more of a MIRACLE!   

I felt myself ready to make my move. 

Through the vehicle of New Horizons, to throw my hat in the ring to stand up for "the broad stripes and bright stars thru the perilous fight" to help keep our democracy strong.

I knew it, in every cell of my being!

My prophecy is about to manifest itself.

Watch it play out. 

And, do, please, come along for the adventure and be a part of it!

Coming Soon!

Truth Or Dare Is Truly Back Again! And, Anastasia Is Truly "Rising Again."

Read about New Horizons Truth Or Dare GAME here.

After twenty, long, arduous almost death-defying years.

Oh, yes indeed, death-defying!

Along the way of living in blindness, up until now, this time of "She who rises again, " the Greek and Russian meanings of the name, Anastasia, and following the concluding of my ITAA (International Transactional Analysis Association) Ethics Complaint ordeal, there were days when I felt as if my very life was threatened, moments when I seriously struggled with wondering if I could manage to go on living another minute, or would want to die. 

To be clear, my "feeling like I'm dying times" were my "blind times." Not my Ethics Complaint times of last year though they genuinely did challenge both my lower and Higher Selves enough for me to notice how very easily they could have triggered this response. 

By the time of last year's trials and torments, however, I had already learned the art of transcendent living and had managed it, in this instance, with merit, I believe.

Yet, we all have these times. 

At least almost everyone I've ever met has. 

Or does their utmost to avoid them, fearing emotions such as these could overtake them, drag them under into the pits of death or burning in Hell where they would not be able to fend off these feelings, instead succumbing to them. 

However, imagine this -- New Horizons Truth Or Dare GAME provides a safe enough, secure space to dig down into these depths of the Self and the Soul and transcend them all the way to AWE! 

We did this kind of excavating, transcending and transforming before I was blind, in the “old” New Horizons Truth Or Dare GAME (originally called the Discount Derby). 

And, we are already touching this place once again, in some who are prepared to be our true Compassionate Warriors, in the “new.”

Truly amazing! 

Yet this digging and its resulting transformation are not the only reasons to play our GAME. Words like the following from George Orwell and our nationally esteemed Oprah Winfrey speak volumes about the "Why of playing our GAME."  

We hope their words inspire you to want to join us  in the adventure of playing New Horizons Truth Or Dare GAME where we can, together, learn to work collectively and establish new trends for doing, being and living in our society and in our politics.

From George Orwell --

"In a time of deceit, telling the truth is a revolutionary act."

We truly need revolutionary acts in this time of ours.

From Oprah

"What I know for sure is that speaking the truth is the most powerful tool we have."

And, we do need powerful tools to manage these times!

But I did not have the New Horizons Truth Or Dare GAME when I was blind, one of my greatest losses from that era (1998 – 2006). Had I had it, would I have fared better?

I think not. I actually managed the ordeal quite well, given the circumstances.

Because during that time I had something even better, Kebzeh community under the guidance of our Beloved Murat Yagan which brought me teachings that, now, allow me to return with even greater gifts to the “new” Truth Or Dare GAME, than I might have, had I had taken another path. 

(New Horizons Bus Ride Story Adventure is one example of what I/we have brought from Murat and his teachings to New Horizons. One of our dearest dreams and intentions is to get this special tour bus on the road before too long.)

So all turned out just fine, as is; Murat and Kebzeh community being my main supports and guideposts, beyond my own, that allowed being blind to make a shaman of me!

Now, I am ever so grateful, these days, to be able, once again, to conduct this adventure called New Horizons Truth Or Dare GAME and its associated GAME Community, with a growing number of compatriots.

Truly amazing!

My Beloved New Horizons Truth Or Dare GAME is back again!

So am I, reclaiming the wholeness I once "felt" in myself that my term of blindness and recovery from blindness seemed to have shattered, for a time.

To find this in my life, once again, is to truly know the art of kintsugi, “the Japanese art of putting broken pottery pieces back together with gold — built on the idea that in embracing flaws and imperfections, you can create an even stronger, more beautiful piece of art.”

Heavy lifting and the, still unexplainable, "crossing over" I discussed on one of my last radio shows, Breaking The (#MeToo) Silence And The Price It Exacts, has brought me here, along with lots of discipline, determination and clarity as to my goals – and – a hand full of loving, supportive people who are “like family,” if not of my blood.

This is truly living the Japanese art of kintsugi which I wrote about while I was going through my Ethics Complaint ordeal but never posted.

Does this notion of kintsugi make a cracked pot of me, put back together again with liquid gold?

Maybe. If so, I'll take it, flaws and imperfections and all else going with it. Such as the hard lessons and unexpected gifts that come along too.

Umm. 

Maybe I will get to posting that, almost forgotten, article, “On Kintsugi and The Art Of Putting The Fractured Parts Of Oneself Back Together With Gold,” before too long.

What Titans Like Bezos And Pelosi Model That You Too Can Learn

Coming soon!