My Countdown Now Begins

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I have pledged myself to making a "Major Announcement" on January 6, 2023. I "felt" ready and the announcement imperative.

January 6 will forever more be indelibly inscribed from here forth in the hearts and minds of the American collective consciousness.

For me, personally, January 6, 2021 also held a fortuitous significance. My forthcing 'major anouncement' somehow affirms that notion in me -- boldly. Alongside of that assertion inside of me is a parallel realization -- I want now to pull back from the anticipated passage ahead for me.

A whole cache of fears and other assorted reservations call out for my examination. With only nine days remaining until my "big announcement" I feel a need to reflect deeply on my coming adventure, if you can call it that.

More to come.

Anastasia To Introduce New Radical Truth-Telling Podcast Series

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Radical Truth Telling To Be Focus Of New Podcast Series  

Wednesday, January 6 -- >Live broadcast 10:30 a.m. 

With more on the way...

Meet Meda Rose -- Anastasia's Alter Ego

Excerpted from Camelot Disrupted, a work in progress

Around the base of a mountain, two rivers rushed toward one another seeking passage to the sea. Nestled into the mountain was a secluded, magical spot called Black Bear Mountain Village. An aging warrior woman stood on the mountain’s side. She was timeless as an oak, ageless from a distance, graceful in standing repose. Someone who understood such things would have known her to be listening to an ancient wisdom. To others she might just seem to be thinking, eyes closed, shoulder length hair gently lifted by the breeze, hands resting comfortably in front of her. A lark sang in the distance as rays of sunshine filtered through leaves to dapple her face. 

She wore a deep turquoise garment, and although this wrap might have looked out of place somewhere else, here beneath an ancient tree it looked almost inevitable, foretold. A playful skittling through the underbrush was the closest sign of life but by no means the only one. The clearing was alive with subtle sounds, the creatures’ business of the early morning, a vibrant felt sense of awe that hummed up from the earth. They were an earthly song behind the images that danced before the woman’s eyes bringing her now to focus on a particular arrangement, a hazy series of forms and figures charged with meaning for her.  

“It’s here!” she exclaimed, almost child-like in her delight.  “My time has come!”  

Oversoul had guided her to this, shone a light on her footsteps in those times when she’d been lost.  And It lifted her with that silent but certain voice she had heard that one time of her Prophecy. The instructions of that one time had guided her destiny the many days of her life since, sometimes consciously, other times not. Now, as she relaxed into the imagery, pieces of memory assembled themselves into a pattern in the woman’s mind, a pattern as wondrous and shifting as the jeweled pieces of the kaleidoscope she’d cherished as a child, a gift from her father. Her father – his loss pained her still… Her hero -- honored too late by her, yet out of her grief had come healing and an inheritance she could now pass on to others.

The woman let out a breath, almost a sigh. She widened her stance in defense of something not yet quite seen, as if the pictures coalescing in front of her carried messages of such weight she would need to readjust herself in order to take them in fully. But it was not resistance. She had almost always been an eager learner, often times out of sheer desperation. Next she would need to contemplate what to tell the others of what Oversoul had guided her to see this time.

Then she would wait for further instructions as to what exactly would be required of her in order to, at last, reveal to multitudes  the wisdom and the guidance of her prophecy and how to best implement these in troubled times.

Anastasia's Alter Ego -- Meda Rose Contrasts Radical Truth-Telling And Gaslighting

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Excerpted draft from a work in progress, Camelot Disrupted

Meda Rose – in our tale, Camelot Disrupted, as it begins, is contemplating plans for her return to Washington, D.C. to carry out the instructions of her Prophecy. 

She contrasts her community life at Black BeaMountain Village with fast track life in D.C. , reflecting that, unlike the nation’s capital, it is filled with the gifts of radical truth-telling combined with unconditional love, respect, peace and unity— all of which make even hard times gratifying – after they are overcome – that is. 

And at BBMV, hard times do pass, often with some effort, collective effort – community effort

Radical truth-telling is the key! 

In the language of slang, the term "gaslighting" and it's attributes might be used to describe the anthesis of radical truth-telling. In the language of Transactional Analysis (TA), the psychological model in which Meda had trained as an organizational consultant, specializing in women's issues and later male-female interpersonal dynamics and had earned most of the national and international

organization's highest credentials, the phenomenon called gaslighting would instead be called "discounting," an unconscious dynamic with true gaslighting, given its hidden agendas being the manipulation and control of others, one of the most destructive forms.

Meda, in establishing the culture of BBMV placed a ban on discounting - whatever its form, replacing that very human yet highly dysfunctional process with one of the village’s day-to-day disciplines being the assisting of one another in striving to be wholly conscious, a challenging endeavor to say the least. 

The die-hard commitment to this process is what makes all else at BBMV so profound.  

Meda takes great pleasure in having brought the principle and the practice of no denying, no lying, no minimizing or ignoring of relevant data to BBMV - straight out of TA -- to be foundational for BBMV culture.

Find out more as Anastasia and the Board Members of New Horizons-Small "Zones of Peace introduce a new online radio show series. 

New Podcast Series: Radical Truth-Telling Comes To Black Bear Mountain Village 

Launching date -- December 7

On Anastasia's Possible Human Possible Society Radio Show 

Commenting From Anastasia

And...introducing Anastasia's alter ego -- Meda Rose as depicted in Anastasia's forthcoming (maybe by next Thanksgiving??) work in progress Camelot Disrupted.

Anastasia commenting:

Until the world accepts and applies the wisdom that comes of the merging of SCIENCE and MYSTICISM, the merging of left and right brain processing and perceiving and learns to apply that wisdom to all things, great and small-- unnecessary tragedy will continue.

UNNECESSARILY!!

Meda Rose wisdom:

But there are solutions. Look to Gandhi's words for inspiration --.

 "We do best to begin by carving out territories or zones of peace in our personal relations where violence and deceit won't be used."

.A  Anastasia Commenting: And look to Meda Rose to tell you how and guide you on your journey to AWE! 

I've Learned Some Things From There (March 16, 2020) To Here

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Of all the many things I've learned, living under the life-threatening pressures of the pandemic -- and -- the tyranny of Donald Trump, is this one thing that stands out as the most signicant and important to know. 

So essential is this one thing that I have come to know as a truth deep in the very core of my being, a knowing that only the challenges of the pandemic could have brought me to comprehend. That and the devastating era of Trump. 

This one thing!

So much a truth to me that, perhaps it is becoming the central theme of my book in progress Camelot Disrupted.

Read what I am saying here.

See what you think.

Even let me know with an email at mountainwomanrj@aol.com  or comment on this site that my Beloved Personal Assistant, Jill,will be moderating.

Here it is -- 

Nothing in the world is more venerable, more gorgeous, more the very essence of art, than a fully developed human being functioning at his or her optimum capacity -- doing their best, whatever that is, facing life as is, full face foreword.

Nothing in the world is more magnificent!

The "Lesson" is embedded in the Rabbi Zusya quote below --

Rabbi Zusya said before his death, "In the coming world, they will not ask me: 'Why were you not Moses?' They will ask me: 'Why were you not Zusya?”.

 What do you think about that?

To Share Or Not To Share

Part I: Anastasia the Storyteller returns -- officially -- with tales to tell: "Where I've been, where I am and where I'm going." -- The topic and what's in it for you.

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O.K.!!

Bread's in the oven baking away a.k.a. my/our book is -- at last -- beginning to take shape! And is it ever gonna be a tale to tell!

Yippee! Anastasia's true story fictionalized to heighten the pleasure I'm having turning my life's ups and downs and ultimate achievements out of it all into teaching tales -- specially designed to be, not only a tale to tell but a fictionalized, based on facts --backstory on how to make "exploring one's dark side" into a playbook for becoming a "possible human, building a possible society."

Such fun!

Definitely -- This work in progress is a lot about where I've been, where I am and where I'm going.

But it's been a long, hard journey to get here -- to this book of mine, Camelot Disrupted, truly being on its path to publication. Lots more to do for sure.

And I'm not quite sure what to do next in many ways, right here and now, including --

"What do I tell readers of my three interconnected blogs where I've been, now that I "feel" ready to return (to stay, not just pop in and out intermittently) with some good, even great wisdom, news, information and hopefully inspiration to share -- "G-d willing and the creek don't rise ?

I've almost disappeared from here for long periods of time since the pandemic began and feel quite lucky to continue to still have the loyal following I seem to have accrued, seriously diminished though its been.

But then who hasn't disappeared during these challenging, often scary times?

And who could possibly have avoided "diminishment" -- typical, for most of us, in multiple areas these past few years?

Nonetheless, I think I'm back. I hope so. I love the many gifts blog writing has given me now for more than a decade.

My story -- or at least a big part of it -- is about my book writing adventure -- initiated in early Ocober, 2020. The project was "supposed" to culminate in a publishable product by now!! which I would then have put in the hands of an agent -- according to the mega-thousands dollar contract we signed with a seemingly??? reputable New York Times bestselling ghost writing agency.  OMG!

But awfully disappointing with this first agency who we have every intention of bringing suit against for mega bucks!

Story for another time.

Nonetheless -- we are at last here at a joyful new beginning with a very promising new agency, heading for product completion -- and -- publication asap -- making a great story our priority.

Q: Why do I say "we" and "our"?

A: Because for a first time ever I have a writing team and a really good one. Best member, my BFF Sue. And THE SHARED adventure we are having in the doing is like nothing I've ever experienced before! 

And believe me when I say I've lived a life of adventure most always, as my awesome forthcoming fantasy, historical fiction book Camelot Disrupted, Book One, Lost Hope Regained, will fancifully depict..

But nothing EVER quite like this.

 The co-creating is lifting me higher than I've ever known before.

Watch me soar!

More to come.

It's Been So Difficult Like For Everyone Else

 I wish we could share our end of how we've struggled throughout the pandemic and what we are doing now, officially beginning to recover.

Because WE SAID SO!! MADE A PLEDGE.

Perhaps we will do that -- soon -- SHARE.

And juiciest of all let you in with where we've set our sights on going ---

The time of Anastasia's prophesized return to Capital Hill with a message and a method is also about to begin!!

Camelot Disruptedl will tell you all about it.

Follow the adventure. Join the adventure.

Making A Book Baby

And she -- Camelot Disrupted-- is going to be GORGEOUS!

But OMG! Conceiving has been horrendous!!

One (ghostwriter) contract = a miscarriage. Maybe you can relate to how that's been!

Now breads in the oven!!

Baby's name: Camelot Disrupted 

Siblings/Family Name -- Lost Hope Regained, a four book series

Due date: Fall -- Winter 2023

Main theme: Book One -- Camelot Disrupted -- How Meda Rose (alter ego for Anastasia) got from there to here!

You're gonna love it. 

But....not another memoir!!! Oh no!

This one to be a bit more fun -- a juicey tale of female heroism, personal transformation --- and -- a huge dose of tackling the dark side of society and politics -- told in rich fantasy, historical fiction prose.

Gonna be a winner!

"When You Walk Through A Storm.." Find A New Writing Team

That's what we did.

So now?

What should we now do with the old one who definitely robbed us of almost eighteen months of book writing progress?

Umm? 🤔

It Was A Scam! And Not A Scam!

P.S. Anastasia handled her end like the Goddess she aspires to be, without urgency, without reactivity. Always with dignity and studied diplomacy. And almost immediately found a new agency. Beshrt  - Hebrew for destiny!

An adventure in going in a cage with Big Cats -- the Manhattan publishing world to help prepare me for Congress when my time comes,

Or, as my father might have said about this adventure -- "It'll put hair on your chest."

Anastasia Super Sleuth did an excellent job -- ala Sherlock Holmes himself, uncovering the darkness of a ghostwriting/editing New York Times bestsellers agency/firm -- turning a bit of the leaden of ourselves ( Anastasia and Sue) into gold, as we attempted -- unsuccessfully -- to collaboratively write Camelot Disrupted and came out the other end of the deal, minimally a bit more polished for the adventure. At least by a few carats.

Tales -- adventures to recount.

Always "exploring my dark side: the adventure of a lifetime."

Best with my BFF - Sue birthing Black Bear Mountain Village.

She be midwife. I be Momma Bear.

Camelot Disrupted Book Project Jeopardy Being Averted. Oops I Was Wrong. Re-routed Is How It Turned Out.

Quite an adventure!!

Many stories to tell, sooner or later. 

Lessons learned and to be learned. 

Summer Solstice, The Magical Evening Black Bear Mountain Village Was Officially Birthed In Ritual

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Camelot Disrupted Book Project In Jeopardy

 Details forthcoming.-- perhaps in starts and stops.

The whole story really begins sixty one years ago today when I, Anastasia a.k.a Marcia E, Rosen, began my adventure of becoming a young, innocent bride starting my new life in Washington, D.C. where my new husband and I are intent on being in the aura of the Kennedy's Camelot.

Read my I Came For Camelot series here to begin opening the door to what Camelot Disrupted might mean to me.

In other words I hereby offer my loyal readers a peek into coming attractions.

From Sue deVeer, NH/ZOP Secretary-Treasurer Commenting On...

... her BFF Anastasia's words -- "Can I Stand In Place.."

"Anastasia, when you read me your words,  your way of expressing - "Can I Stand In Place" touched a place in me of hope for the world, as if standing in place was a problem solving option.

Immediately I thought -- Can I really stand still where I am? Even for a moment?

Not compelled to do?

No mantra running through my head, endlessly telling me - "Let's get busy and do this next thing! And do it -- right now!

Your words made me think of you as Meda Rose, your alter ego in Camelot Disrupted, both of YOU as social and political activist role models for me, talking to the trees, listening to their ancient wisdom for guidance, especially in troubled times.

From the 2 of YOU and your words I was taking up the notion that urgency,  busyness and making lots of noise and activity immediately might not be the only ways to go to solve our many crises. Some of us, at least, might do best with long range visioning and planning as you are doing.

Deep quiet and consideration might be wiser at times.

Meda's coined a phrase you often repeated to me this past year to help me through my personal struggles.

Meda Rose calls it her personal Yoda-ism.

"Be first. Do after be."

Anastasia, you and the developing community at our in-progress Black Bear Mountain Village have been trying to help me save my own life this past year, most particularly through our Truth Or Dare GAME and Pandemic Survivors' Support Groups, the former has brought me to look at some hard stuff in myself that I was doing to help create my life's unmanageability (i.e. turns out being a goody goody two shoes, my life script up until now, isn't truly as sweet deep down as it has looked) and the support groups have given me a consistent and secure place to feel safe, understood and cared for.

I had a heartbreak heart attack last year from the fear and consequent stress I was experiencing from family non-Covid medical emergencies, the complications multiplied over many times by the pandemic.

Through it all my Work Horse "survival script" was exacerbating my realities. My instantly activated hypervigilance turning my difficult circumstances plus my way of handling them into my life being unmanageable to the point that my heart gave out on me.

Hundreds of times you reminded me "Be first. Do after BE."

Now your words -- 

"Can I Stand In Place.. on my mountainside, looking down on the valley below" -- gives me a similar pause  -- and comfort. So -- like that old gnarled apple tree that once needed a lift, we are both now standing up straighter and stronger.

A touch of "Lost Hope Regained," the title of the book series we are presently working on with our writing team, with Book One -- Camelot Disrupted now in progress.

(Officially I am Anastasia's scribe and creative collaborator for Camelot Disrupted.)

Respectfully

Susan C. deVeer

Can I Stand In Place?

.Can I stand in place...

...on my mountainside, looking down on the valley below -- as if seeing my entire past to date laid out before me-- with joy and celebration?

I am aiming for this or something better.

I believe I know how to achieve this gentle knowing, this gift of being able to see so far and wide. 

To others, the few that are genuinely aware of how I accomplish my profound experiences of higher consciousness, the gyymbastics I do with my mind, the deep diving into my emotional underworld, always seeking and finding buried treasures, are described as magic.

Sue, my BFF, is particularly observant and sensitive to seeing this in me. 

But -- it is not magic though "magical" it might be. It is something else.

Something, a state of being, I worked very hard emotionally and psychologically, interpersonally and communally to achieve. That I managed my way through this labor to be able now to relax into its rewards, combined days with my having grown into becoming a Shaman, amazes even me at times.

Being blind made a Shaman of me.

It was not on purpose. Until now I resisted truly owning this rewarded attainment of hard work on myself, discipline and determination.

Perhaps most importantly what I have come to be, am becoming, grows from "..the shoulders of the giants" upon which I stand -- my teachers.

First and foremost my father. Next in line -- My Mom -- my stepmother who helped transform my life with her gentle and wise guidance.

I will write more of this -- all of it that I can. And share stories too when the time is right. My stories hopefully inviting back the tales of others.

It is important that I give this information to you. Especially if -- you are struggling but courageous enough to yearn for something better, especially through this turbulent and scary time of the pandemic --  and open to facing hard facts and feelings. Then you may find what I have to share to be of my particular importance for you. 

Possibly even a lifeline. 

This suggestion is not intended to mean I/we are in the lifesaving business/ But we do have some expertise here to guide a dedicated traveler or two on life's twists and turns. But only for the most dedicated and determined.

More to come. More to share as I -- at last -- begin my preparations for the "return of my prophecy." And what it will mean. Certainly for me.

And maybe for you.

Fifty years in the planning! Can you believe that? I barely can!

Can I stand in place and see all of this? Know these things I know?

Apparently so!

A Preview Of Coming Attractions

Lost Hope Regained: Book One -- Camelot Disrupted

Now in progress.

"It’s here!” she exclaimed, almost child-like in her delight.  “My time has come!” 

The silent but certain voice she had heard that one time of her Prophecy now appeared again to her. As she relaxed into the comfort of its hushed fullness, she heard it speak.

Then the woman let out a breath, almost a sigh and widened her stance in defense of something not yet quite seen, as if  pictures she now saw, coalescing in front of her carried messages of such weight she would need to readjust herself in order to take them in fully.

But of one thing she was certain, the predicted term of her return to the nation's capital with essential survival tools to help save her country, as prophesied many decades ago, had now arrived.

Why and How Is This Going To Be Important For You? "It's Official: Anastasia- -- "She who rises again" " Is Ascending Once More

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It's Official: Anastasia- -- "She who rises again" Is Ascending Once More

Also see:

It's Official Now! NH/ZOP Harpers Ferry Retreat Center To Be..

It's Official: Groder - Rosen Addiction Development" Theory's Intriguing and Empowering Backstory To Be Told

...fictionalized as Meda Rose, "An aging warrior woman" in Anastasia's (ME) forthcoming fantasy, historical fiction novel, "Camelot Disrupted," unfolding her tale of the U.S. "Male" Service, circa 1966 as it merges with the Watergate scandal of Richard Nixon and beyond.

This is a really BIG deal for me, Anastasia, and the New Horizons Small Zones of Peace Project. Almost fifty years in the birthing! Follow our book writing and publishing project adventure as it unfolds.

Publication expected: March, 2023.