Another excerpt
from my memoir in progress—
Hot Pants, Motorcycles and K Street: In The Era Before Watergate
Having come this far, out on a limb, as I have in writing
this blog, it seems fit that I am ready now to take up the task of coming clean
all the way.
There never was a question but that this site, Anastasia The
Storyteller, had any other intention. From the first it was envisioned that I
would go the distance, wherever that might lead.
I pledged to share my truth, my whole truth and nothing but the truth of my story here – as well as the story, behind the New Horizons Support Network, Inc. and its various initiatives.
I pledged to share my truth, my whole truth and nothing but the truth of my story here – as well as the story, behind the New Horizons Support Network, Inc. and its various initiatives.
New Horizons’ story has always, also, been my story. There
has never been a doubt about that. It was my conception, my design, my
direction, my life’s journey, both personal and professional. My dedication and
my blood, sweat and tears brought it into being in 1980. And I carried thevision forward through the darkest of times, especially the years of blindness
and recovery from blindness.
Along the way there
have been precious volunteers and devoted supporters. To them I am grateful
beyond measure. Still there were too many days to suit me when it was only me
carrying the light.
Before 1980 my
personal and professional development was, without distraction, leading New
Horizons and myself to what “we” have now become. Even in kindergarten I was
heading here. So it's a long story. Certainly, it will take me the three hundred and fifty pages I have
outlined for Hot
Pants, Motorcycles and K Street: In The
Era Before Watergate, my memoir.
Then it will still
be incomplete. Hopefully, by then, however, the enigma I have appeared to
others, since early on will be a little less perplexing. I realize that the riddle of who and what I am truly
has been troublesome for some, particularly my children. And, for that I am
sorry. To others I have been, admittedly a treasure trove, seemingly open for
exploration, as if I might even willingly be available as entertainment. That
is if one could only get hold of the key. Oftentimes this has been problematic for
me.
This has been
especially true when it involved psychotherapy clients of mine who, even decades
later, were certain I, indeed, held the key to their salvation. Before that
time and a bit since, it seemed as if I had been identified as the latter day
Pied Piper or Music Man. None of this suited my objectives. I wanted only to be
ordinary, to have a niche in the world that called for me to simply be me,
nothing more, nothing less.
As Popeye famously stated, “I am what I am.” And, that is all I
ever wanted to be.
Now for the crux of the challenge; things got really complicated
for me, early on. I doubt, even now, I
have gotten quite to the bottom of it all. But, certainly, if anyone has ever
been dedicated to unraveling the puzzle of who they are, hoping, of course, to
find their way to being all they can be, it has been me.
I want to know and understand my complicated story. I want you to
know my story. All of our stories are important. I have been intent on writing
mine since 1979, thirty-five years it will be by the end of this year. Finally,
after all this time I am completely immersed in the project with a self-imposed
deadline for its completion. I will do my best to fulfill th epledge. This
site will be my aid.
Now, it is time, therefore, for me to share with you the pivotal
piece that underlies what has come to be of me. Though how and why it appeared I
am not quite certain, at least at this date.
The central, unifying element, as least as I know it, involves a prophecy.
It came to me loud and clear in sight and sound under most auspicious circumstances and at a most auspicious time –
All that I was before and all that I seem to have become since
appears to me to be crystallized in a singular circumstance; that Richard Nixon
lied to the American public about the Watergate affair. And, many believed him
at the time, or so it seemed to me.
In my next article on this circumstance, “Anastasia’s having been
guided by a prophecy, now, for over forty years,” I will
discuss the issue of prophecy further, as a service to you and a healing and
integration of me for me.
I hope you will check out what I have to say.
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