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Sunday, January 5, 2020

Trump’s Impeachment Has Brought Me Such Peace. How About You?


U.S. politics leaving you anxious and fearful?

Here’s how I got to serenity. You can have it too!

U.S. politics do not need to tie you and your life up in knots.

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Here's a piece of my tale.

For me, a personal #MeToo-type situation, uncovered surprisingly just before Christmas, 2017 had mobilized the forces of my inner warrior, bringing me, first off to take a semi-public stand for myself such as I had never done before, fighting a thirteen month battle to have the rights of my person-hood respected, purposely doing my utmost in diplomatic ways, yet with undaunting, internal fierceness, as I proceeded through days, weeks and months of opposition.

Now I'm realizing ongoing liberation and rewards from this very challenging rite of passage that had speaking truth to power as its foundation, increased serenity among the gifts.

Never doubt the power of truth-telling to transform a life!

Compassionate Warrior Woman that I have become, with my ethics complaint ordeal as one of the most transforming and grueling of experiences of my life, in the end I felt victorious, having made myself a winner, in spite of the toll it had exacted!

A win -- not due to anyone else assisting me, but because of how I had managed my inner distresses, transforming them into empowerment that allowed me to adeptly handle what I would consider to be subtle, corrupt organizational behaviors on the part of the Ethics Committee of the International Transactional Association (ITAA) (though I attest to the fact that tendered me, they did not feel subtle at all).

Nonetheless successfully intercepting their subversions brought me a victory and rewards that just do not stop. Though I was not quite able to completely defeat the ITAA, an organization that, has at its core principles, the wherewithal to do better, I won anyway by the standards I had set. 

Such seemingly moderate spoils as mine might be labeled a defeat, by some. 

However, in meeting my overarching intentions – speaking truth to power, the whole of it, I set me free, liberated from the many survival-based strategies I had learned growing up to hide my true essence, accommodating others agendas for me.

Now my pattern of over adapting to others, a carry-over from enduring a violent, tyrannical mentally ill mother, often by remaining quiet to my detriment, was no longer. Protectively hidden parts of me that might evoke displeasure were mine to claim and wear if they suited me. 

The ordeal that changed me began when I discovered that cache of long-forgotten documents: correspondence and training records, stuffed away in a no-longer-used file cabinet, prompting me to immediately file a formal ethics complaint with the International Transactional Analysis Association (ITAA), against Marty Groder, M.D., my former psychiatrist mentor, for sexual harassment. 

(The International Transactional Analysis Association (ITAA) has been the professional psychology-based accrediting association of my longest affiliation, though my connectedness to it has waxed and waned over the years).

In taking this action, I came face-to-face with a forceful challenging of the rights and values I hold most dear, facing one day after the next of inordinate pressures mostly growing out of repeated dismissals of me by the ITAA Ethics Committee. Yet persevere I did, creatively and courageously. 

Bravo for me!

When the torment was over, I had achieved my greatest reward, by just coming through the process! I had paid my dues by filing a lengthy and detailed set of complaint forms, enduring continuous disregard and disrespect and strengthening my resolve to continue making every effort to speak truth to power as a prime foundation for my life with enormously expanded capabilities to do so, through the battle that had just played out. 

Without a doubt, my triumph had not been achieved through any responsiveness from the ITAA (There had been none other than superficially) or from Marty who had passed away in 2008. I was the creator of my rewards, the midwife delivering my personal transformation. 

(A good bit of cheerleading from those who know me best had also sustained me.)

The treatment I had received at the hands of the ITAA Ethics Committee had not only been dismissive, but was often more like metaphorically wrangling alligators who swore they did not bite, yet left bloody marks, to say the least, save for a brief span of communication I had had with one of the members, an esteemed TA colleague from the UK who was supposed to have been my support through the healing and reconciliation process on my behalf, that had all too quickly been aborted.

No, absolutely not! My success had not come through the ITAA Ethics Committee, or even the organization at large. More than anything it had been my determination to tell my truth and keep at it in the face of opposition that had set me free.

Completing my dealings with the ITAA regarding my ethics complaint against Marty Groder is where 2019 began for me. However, it is the harvesting of the fruits of that labor, my heightened clarity and the skillfulness that I found myself delighted to experience in myself, is where it ends.

With this behind me "Trump’s Impeachment Has Brought Me Such Peace.  How About You?"


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